THIS is what Viable Paradise did for me: Or, how Steven Brust saved my novel

So I’ve been working on this damned book for a while.  And while I had the basics of a good story, there were issues.  Even before I went to Viable Paradise, I knew the story had a glaring plot hole.  I kept working, on the theory that I’d be able to plug the hole eventually, but even when I got back from VP, no solution had presented itself.

Back when I was at VP, a comment from Elizabeth Bear about my manuscript prompted a mindstorm of thought that eventually lead to a total revamp of the communications technology of my protagonist and his society.

A couple of days ago, ruminating on that particular rabbit hole experience opened up a new story element I think will improve the story.  But I still couldn’t  figure out my plot hole, which was big, as it spoke to the motivation behind the entire story.  In essence, and I’m being cagey because I don’t want to give stuff away here, the main antagonist’s actions didn’t make sense. Why do what they did to humanity when it would be far simpler to just destroy the planet from orbit and move on?

Anyway, I was noodling through the plot points as they will be rewritten.  And I ran into the plot hole again.  And there was great gnashing of teeth in the land.

And then LO! The voice of Steve “With a Hat” Brust–or, if you prefer, Steven frelling Brust–came to me, a remembered line from VP: “If you’re stuck on where the story goes next, get on at Need and go all the way to Can’t.”  I might not have that right; but the gist is correct.

And goddamn if that didn’t do the trick.  I know why they did it.  I know what that means for the characters.  I know what it means for the human race.  And I know what it means for the second book, if such a thing ever comes to pass.  And the third, for that matter.

And I cannot wait to get writing on that thing.  But first: my Thursday story needs to be revised.  See ya!

Things said during Viable Paradise

During the Viable Paradise seminars, a  lot of pretty funny or profound things are said.  I won’t be giving context here.  I’m sorry, but this post is primarily for my fellow VP17 students, and we already know the context.  I invite my VP17 family to add more in comments.  

“Plot originality is overrated” – Teresa Nielsen Hayden

“Your but zooms” – Elizabeth Bear

“The failure mode of ‘clever’ is ‘asshole'” – Patrick Nielsen Hayden, quoting Scalzi

“Don’t use a 20lb sledge when a ball peen will do.” – Scott Lynch

“You are a dissector of magic, Jim–a vivisectionist of wonder!” – SL

“Why should I believe your FTL when you can’t handle a firearm?” – Jim Macdonald

“Often, two or three bad ideas can be slammed together to make a good idea.” – TNH

 

Viable Paradise: Final Thoughts

When I teach 9th grade, one of my units deals with the idea of the Heroic Journey.  Most of my readers know of this pattern, but for those who don’t, here’s the nutshell: the hero must go to a place away from his everyday life.  In that place, he has a mentor, and helpers, and he faces a series of challenges, including one that nearly destroys him.  When he comes through it, he has learned something about himself.

Martha’s Vineyard was the sacred space to which I came, crossing the threshold of an entire nation to do so.  My mentor was an amalgam of all the instructors.  My helpers were my fellow students, who both helped me and taught me, as well as the staff who made sure I and all the other students remained in one piece.  I faced the Horror that is Thursday, as well as the emotions of that evening’s crisis.  And I learned that I am a writer.  Nothing and no one can take that from me.

I mentioned earlier that I wept.  What I didn’t say was why.  And while you probably can guess, I’m going to tell you anyway.

I was weeping for so much.  I wept for the loss of my tribe, even as I knew they would be there online.  I wept for the loss of the “sacred space” of the Island Inn where we’d all become a family of sorts.  And I wept for the future I actually felt I had a chance at.  It isn’t that I think publishing my stories is going to make me completely happy—for one thing, I’m not particularly unhappy now.  And I am well aware that not many writers make it to a point where they can make as much writing full time as they can with a day job, and I’ll keep a day job until and unless such a time occurs.  But I have burned for so long with the need to tell my stories—not through self-publishing, but through bookstores and publishers.  And I finally believe that I can do that.  I finally see that I do, in fact, have the ability to weave a story someone else will want to read.  And the gift of that knowledge came from people I respect, and people I admire—both students and instructors.

Eventually the tears went away, and I began to replay the week I’d just experienced.  On my way home, I formulated plans to make the transition from amateur hobbyist to professional—not plans to try, but plans to do it, no matter how long it takes.

To all the instructors, staff, and my fellow students: Thank you for what was undoubtedly one of the best experiences of my life so far.  I miss you all, and look forward to future meetings, wherever they might be.

Alex, Beth: BEST.  ROOMMATES.  EVER. Seriously, you’re awesome, and you’re stuck with me, now.  Muahahahahahaha!  See you soon, I hope.

Viable Paradise, Days 6 and 7: Teary Farewells

Friday morning began with a lecture on the State of the SF/F Publishing Industry.  It was pretty interesting, and covered the period from roughly after WWII to the present day, touching on a lot of the big changes in the industry.  One of the most important aspects of this I can share, since it’s been a staple of writer lore for decades now.  Yog’s Law says “Money always moves toward the writer.”  In other words, don’t publish something “for the exposure,” or other stupid reasons to publish a story (not post on your site, but publish elsewhere) for free. It’s the nicer version of Scalzi’s “Fuck you, pay me!”

Next up was a Collegium with all the instructors, but lead by Debra Doyle and Teresa Nielsen Hayden, on research.  We covered lots of useful books and information of use to SF/F writers, got Steven Brust’s recipe for Secret Histories, and a few other tidbits.

After this was an all-hands-on-deck Collegium where we asked whatever questions we had remaining.  That lasted nearly two hours, and covered ground from SFWA—the Science Fiction Writers of America—membership requirements to the recent Vox Day controversy to questions about agents, writing woes, etc.

As this part of the day wound down, it was time for one last ritual moment: the taking of the VP oath, which contained, among other things, a promise to write, to revise, and to submit our work to paying markets only.  We were each awarded a lapel pin and a certificate giving us permission from The Muse to write badly—so long as we fix it during revision.

Then we took the traditional picture of the graduating class, and it was time for what our program schedule called “Teary Farewells.”  There weren’t a lot of tears on Friday night, though.  We drank a little, we said goodbye, and we did more singing and talking until the wee hours.  I crashed out at midnight; I had to get up pretty early in the morning, and I didn’t want to be miserable when I did so.  And there was a little bit of awareness that even if I stayed up longer, I had to sleep sometime.  As Tolkien said, you have to leave Faerie at some point, and return to your life.  This experience, this incredible rewiring of my brain, had to have a moment where it ended.  And it was better to end it when I was happy.  So I said goodnight, Bear and a couple of fellow students gave me hugs, and I toddled off to bed, happy as I could possibly be.

The next morning, I had to get up.  I had planned to sleep until 8am, but my roommates both left much earlier, so I got up so I could give at least one of them a proper goodbye (the other, unfortunately, had to leave before I managed to wake up).  I packed up my stuff, and I swear to you, I heard the “goodbye” theme from the end of Babylon 5’s run in my head as I did so.  I got a little bit teary then, but I managed to tamp it back down.

In the staff room, I sat with a few students for a short while.  I got hugs from a couple more people before I left, and Mac Stone, bless her heart, nearly broke me when she said goodbye.  When my time came to head off to the ferry, I got in the car and went with only a little sadness.

My composure totally ended when I got on the ferry.  I went to the top, open-air deck, and I cried.  I tried not to, but one of my colleagues, Paul, had tweeted “I will not cry in the airport. I will not cry in the airport.  I am crying in the airport.”  My ability to hold it in totally deserted me, and the tears, they came.

When my daughter saw me coming down the stairs of the terminal, 3000 miles and 12 hours later, she jumped up and down for joy.  My wife smiled in that amazing way she has that totally melts my accustomed reserve, and I imagined our future.

I was home.  And it was good.

Viable Paradise: Day 5, The Horror that is Thursday

First up was a collegium with Teresa and Patrick on How Publishing Works.  Quite interesting, and full of information sure to help as we all begin to navigate the publishing world and get our own work out there.  Again, I’m being light on specifics, though much of this was information you can find online.  What I will tell you is that if you’re a writer, you ought to pay attention to Writer Beware.

Next was Steven Brust’s lecture on “Stupid Writer Tricks.”  This was one of the really useful ones, because I get stuck and I’ve always had a hard time getting out of it.  Now I have an arsenal of tricks to employ.

We had a brown-bag lunch collegium with Steven Gould on how to be a writer in public, in which he shared with us many truly awful things new authors have actually done, and how to cultivate a good public persona.  This was a very funny discussion, but didn’t really teach me anything I didn’t already know about how to handle oneself on the public stage just from being a teacher.  Wheaton’s Law is a good rule to follow: Don’t be a dick.

After lunch was the most eventful lecture.  Scott Lynch gave the lesson.  Half of it was from Sherwood Smith, who was supposed to have been an instructor this year but had to drop out due to illness; it was on Mary Sues and how to avoid them.  Then Scott began his own lesson, titled “Kicking the Body Habit.”  This was about how hard it is to actually kill a person, complete with some pretty graphic and horrifying stories.  One of our number actually passed out and was taken away by ambulance; fortunately he returned the next day seemingly completely fine.   And that’s all I’ll say on that, to protect his privacy.

Then came the Horror that is Thursday.  I can say nothing about it except that it is to be experienced.

The “Mandatory fun” that night began at 9.  We were encouraged to come down to the lecture hall in our pajamas.  When we did, we found that we were being read two stories.  First Patrick got the ball rolling by reading to us “The Book of my Enemy has Been Remaindered,” and then Elizabeth Bear read us Edward Gorey’s The Unstrung Harp, the single most honest look at publishing ever written about the “unspeakable horror of the literary life.”  When that was over, we all went upstairs and did more music, more partying, and more discussion into the wee small hours.  Elizabeth Bear, at that point, said something I will not be able to forget: “You’re no longer students.  Now you’re our colleagues.”  Now, I’m the same age as Bear, but I suddenly felt like one of “the adults” had given me the highest compliment possible.  I don’t even take it literally, and won’t until I get something published somewhere.  But it felt good.

Unfortunately, I had a weird flare-up of social anxiety that didn’t exactly ruin my evening, but it made it less than stellar.  Other students were trying to pull me into hugs and the camaraderie of an impromptu chorus line, and I froze up.  I eventually had to leave; I was starting to freak out about people actually seeming to like me.  I looked at myself, and I saw myself as wanting.  And suddenly I could not believe that any of the people around me actually liked me, even though I knew better.  I’ve never in my life experienced an anxious moment that strong or that clear.  I had to leave, but I wanted to stay with people.  So I tried to stay, but things got too much and I left, returning to my room, where I immediately berated myself about the evening, adding to an anxiety I shouldn’t have felt in the first place.

Eventually I forgave myself for being a dolt and went to bed.  I think I crashed at about 1:45am.

It was a wonderful night’s sleep.  And it ought to have been—I had earned it.

Viable Paradise: Day 4, Wednesday – The Critique and the Doom

On Wednesday, Scott Lynch led a collegium on non-expository description and the conscious use of symbolism.  This was as eye-opening as the earlier lectures, and gave me some great ideas.

Then came my critique.  The instructors in the room were author Elizabeth Bear and Tor editor Patrick Nielsen Hayden, which gave me nightmares (not literally), because frankly, Tor is my dream publisher.  If Patrick didn’t like my work, I’d be crushed.

Fortunately, the critique went well: Bear and Nielsen Hayden, along with the five students in the room, gave me feedback on my story that essentially amounted to “This is pretty good, but there are some issues you need to consider.”  Most of the issues were things Steven Gould had already mentioned the night before, and a couple of the other things were mentioned because a trick I was trying to pull on the reader didn’t work and came off as creepy.  There were also some pretty severe issues that I’ve planned fixes for.  So that’s good.

Bear made one comment that really stuck with me and, as I told her later, sent me down the rabbit hole.  In trying to work out ways to improve the point she’d brought up (namely, that the tech I was using was very 2005), I completely revamped the tech used in the story, to the point that things I had thought only one character had are now ubiquitous, and it even unlocked something I’d been noodling around with but wasn’t sure how to implement.  If this book ever gets published, it is in large part thanks to her advice.

Patrick said something that has reverberated in my head ever since he said it.  “I began reading this last night.  If it had been a 500 page manuscript, I’d probably still be reading it.”  I really hope he meant it (and I have no reason to doubt it), because it meant a lot to me.

After that was a lecture from Steven Gould.  First he asked us what we want in our careers, and we generated a long list of things: Hugo nods, Nebula awards, fans writing fanfic, etc.  It was a long list.  Then he said the important words: “You cannot control any of this.” Then he flipped the chart, and we started generating things we COULD control, from “Actually write” to “don’t bet against yourself.”  This last was the most important and spoke to me the most.  Steve told a story of an editor (I don’t recall which) who asked a young writer at a convention if he’d submitted anything to his magazine.  The young writer said something to the effect that his work wasn’t good enough, and the editor said “How DARE you reject stories from MY publication?!”  In other words, it isn’t my job to say “no” to me, it’s the editor of whatever market I submit my work to.  It’s very easy for me to say “No, it’s not good enough.”  It took me a month after I had my application packet for Viable Paradise to actually send the damn thing, because I knew I wasn’t going to get in.  Well, clearly that was stupid of me.

After lunch, we had the rest of the day and evening free.  I’d plotted out my short story, which was to mix the themes of Lord Dunsany and Aleister Crowley in a short story anthology titled “Twins Fantastic!”  I was scared; I’d written the list of scenes, but now I had to write them.  At noon I started work.  I broke to have lunch with everyone else, then I went back to my room and got started writing.  When I came up for air, it was 6:30pm and I had a complete story of 4,800 words.  Now, it wasn’t perfect.  In fact, at the time, I thought it was pretty bad.  But I needed a break, so I went into town with some of the others.

When I got back a couple of hours later, I read the story again.  I made a few small changes.  Then I went to print it.  Once it was printed, I left it alone until the next day—but that’s another entry.

On Wednesday I went to bed around 11:30; exhausted.  I tried to read but couldn’t; I put my book aside and crashed out.  My roomies coming home didn’t wake me at all—even Alex’s stompy pacing didn’t wake me (just messing with you, Alex!)